The Future is for Discovering...

I rode Davids bike in the rain today. It was cold on my face and hands. The weather is changing here. It smells like fall finally. That sweet spicy smell that is so unique that its more of a feeling than an actual smell. Especially with the rain. The leaves are starting to change too. It is beautiful. I love campus when the leaves are all over the ground. I feel more scholarly when I have to crunch through leaves on the way to class. Maybe because there aren't very many leafy trees in Las Vegas. It just seems so movie-like to me still, even though this is my fifth year here. That is a crazy thought. How life has changed over the last five. How much is it going to change in the next five? I feel that life is flying by, that I am aging. I feel responsibility and maturity creeping up on me. I feel the need to make decisions. Big decisions. I feel the significance, the weight, of what I need to do. A constant knot in my neck reminds me that I am an adult now, or very soon will be. My education has been an adventure. There are so many things that I have learned, technically speaking. I can't deny that I have acquired more knowledge in the last five years at the University. Yet, I feel more than ever, so unintelligent. Perhaps it's because of my major. I wish I read more books while attending the university. I think that I have had to read maybe five books for school. How sad is that? As a student of design- there is much more observing required and more hands-on experience required for our field. I just wish that I could say that when leaving with my degree that I learned about many things. But I can't. I learned how to do my possible future profession. Why is that not enough for me? Divine discontent? Is that even good? Or am I being ungrateful? I need to read more books. After graduation, I am hoping to start learning other things. But not only learning about things, but experiencing them. Or at least learning from experience. I look forward to the future, there is so much to be done. And I have a lot I want to do yet. Maybe I will make a 'Bucket List' as my next post...